You can never get rid of all the weeds!

The recent weeks or perhaps months I have been suffering from a vicious circle of feeling attached to God then --> falling to sin --> feeling guilty to ask for forgiveness --> feeling insecure --> seeking for God very hard --> feeling attached and it goes on and on again.

I struggle and i tried but in the end their seems to be sins that i could not conquer even how hard i try. I feel very bad of myself, feeling that i let God down again and again.

I consulted my mentor and he said life is not about living sin free life it is more about being sensitive to them and being able to confront them more and more through living and spiritual growing.

Father Tommy, an Indian priest who is visiting our campus gave me an interesting illustration.

"If life is like a garden. No matter how much you try you will never get rid of all the weeds. Instead if you focus more on planting flowers everyday in the end those flower will occupy most of you life".

In the end it really remind me of the Lord's prayer.
Give us today our daily bread.
And forgive us our debt as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one (Matthew 6:11-13)

As we should pray and thank God for our everyday meal. It is also necessary to ask for a daily forgiveness. That means we may sin everyday but a healthy Christian would sense it, regret and confess and try every given day to be a better person, moving closer to GOD.